So I lost my wonderful happy job that I love, the one that pulled me out of a three-month-long depression and has kept me happy since the beginning of January, the one I was so excited to have thinking I would be there until the end of the school year and be able to stay with next year also, the job I where I actually enjoyed going to every day, where I really didn't want to call in sick on the two days that I had the flu so bad I couldn't get out of bed...

They hired a certified teacher. Like I said before, I can't get a certificate until next school year, so I've technically been a substitute teacher the whole time, but the principal told me I could pretty much have the job next year, for the continuity with the kids. So much for continuity... I've only been there two months, before that it was one substitute after another, and before that it was a teacher who was only there about three months before she left (got fired, I think). I haven't talked to the principal yet... in fact, I really haven't talked to anyone... the way I found out I was being replaced? When the new teacher walked in and said "I'm the new teacher." She just came in today to observe, because she's waiting for her paperwork to be finished with the county. But she's already been hired. And no one has told me anything. And she intervied last Monday. Maybe somebody could have mentioned to me that they were interviewing someone and maybe I wouldn't have a job after next week? Common courtesy? By the way, we decided to replace you even though you've been doing a good job and even though we told you you'd probably be here the rest of this year and next?

Now, granted, I know this has been a possibility since I started. If someone qualified came along, they had every right to interview them, or hire them, or whatever. But there are... wait let me count... 16 ESE teacher openings in the county, not counting the position I had. It's not like she couldn't have gotten a job somewhere else. And the ESE specialist at the school said the principal wanted someone who would be able to be the teacher for next year. After she knew that I would be able to stay for the rest of this year, and then be hired as a certified teacher next year, and she told me she would do whatever she could to help me get my certification. Thanks. Thanks for all your help. Thanks for pulling me out of a depression and making me get excited about my job now and next year, and take all the plans I had for the kids for later in the year and flush them down the toilet, and throw me back into a depression. Take my babies away from me after I just got to know them. Thanks.

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